Ready for My Train to Come In.

I adopted this as my motto for 2025.

Truthfully, I found it after walking away from the first sign of danger in what could have been a new relationship. A few weeks later, my gut instinct was confirmed when I received a half dozen drunken texts that were pure hatred.

I got off that wrong train quickly, and I gave myself a high-five for trusting myself.

But as I sit here now, four months into 2025, I realized that motto wasn't just going to be a one-time "good job" but rather a continuous test of my own resolve, and resilience. 

It was as if I put this thought out into the universe, and the universe responded with "are you sure you're ready for this?"

It always happens that way, doesn't it?

In just these four, fleeting months, I have let go of my daily coffee and opted for tea instead.

Let go of most gluten and even most Friday-night-glass-of-red-wine while cooking dinner. It has been like my physical body has begun rejecting the things that no longer satisfy it in the way they once did. No matter how much I still enjoyed the moment of consumption.

I've let go of a dear friend I wanted desperately to hold onto and made my heart ache every time I said no. Leaving me reeling at times and asking "why?"

I have said no to interview requests, and even no right as an interview was about to start. Even as I am still starting to grow into this new role as an author and speaker.

That proverbial train was not just a onetime "dodged-a-bullet" type experience, but rather a pervasive, relentless and constant check with my intuition.

Is this right?

No matter how much I like it, or how much I want it or what I think "it" is giving me - is this right? The question that pops up every time I face a crossroad no matter how big or how small.

For me, my intuition speaks to me in my gut. It clenches, feels nauseous, my appetite disappears and then often I am overwhelmed with fatigue. Tiredness to my bones.

That is when I know I have to let go, walk away, climb off that train no matter how fast it is going or if I thought its destination was where I belonged.

In a year that has brought so many new and exciting opportunities, they still have been sandwiched in between moments and experiences, and lifestyle changes I have been forced to make when I realized they were no longer fueling me.

Such is life, right? A constant ebb and flow of experiences that usher you down the path of life.

As I sit here, excited and grateful for the trains that brought me to the current station of residence, and watching trains pass me by, I can't help but whisper:

"I am ready for my train to come in."

Ready to take a break from the eternal vigilance of knowing when it's time to de-board, and ready to find the train destined for me to sit down, put my baggage down, and ride peacefully along for at least a little stretch of peaceful and certain countryside.

Personal growth and understanding are rewarding. But it is exhausting too.

So, if 2025 has left you feeling both excited and overwhelmed, I invite you to sit down next to meet at the train station.

Bring your baggage, bring your weathered heart and your wildest dreams.

We can sit together and watch the trains go by, waiting for ours to arrive.

​And should you board a different one, well then maybe I will see you down the tracks of life